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Sunday, 01 November 2009

  • The Day of Judgement is coming soon....

    Keep yawn at office....
    But I said that I must be a good worker(?).....
    Too bad however I try still same way,till now I still cant fall asleep and sitting here...
    And my status seem not really good these days....

    Today suppose to see doctor but I tot going to my aunty there end up with curi ayam,hv to go next week.......*sigh*

    Suddenly I think that.....
    If I jz leave here one day....
    Did Anyone notice....??
    Did anyone care.....??

    No....They just care bout themselves.....
    No....No matter how much I did they still consider those biatch as fren more than me.....

    Even bro also leaving me.......

    In the man useless family........Just only bring us problem.....

    If it happen like 8 yrs ago...Once Again....

    Where should we escape again....??

    I am so tired of my life now.....

    I dun wanna in the life of escaping again......

    But no one can rely,no one can trust.......

Friday, 09 October 2009

  • Feel lost.....

    Mayb if randomly talked by someone random......I jz feel so lost.....
    My heart is feel so pissed off, feel sad and angry, feel depress....My mind was like rojak with sour and bitter.....
    Even make me cant watch any movie.....
    Because my tears keep hang in my eyes......

    Why....I keep telling myself not to think about it.....
    But when I think about they treat me, how he not trust on me, when think about all the time we have going through....
    And what I get is the fact on today......

    I really cant accept, even till now,I am jz lying to myself....To keep myself survive.....
    The feeling of hope to disappeared.......

    I really lost all the mind.....What I can do or wat shud I do??
    You already dropped into their mind....

    Anything I did you just think is wrong.....
    You never tried to know what I am thinking.....

    You are not like this......They changed you......
    What shud I do.....

    I wish I could gv u a slap!~~! Why all the effort I did always been used??

    *sigh*~No matter how I do, there is no meaning to work on when witout you.......

    So tired.....So lost.....

Thursday, 13 August 2009

  • Backside GG-ed....Mood is Low low down...some1 pls end my suffer....*Just Rants*

    As topic, my butt growed something and kena GG-ed, actually not at the butt, is upper part there, end of my tulang belakang.....
    So it make me sit, stand or any action else is so so hard, I was crawl to sleep for a week.....
    But doctor said that it might be exist for 3-4 week at least.....
    As I know is 1-2 week....OMG so horror....><|||

    Now taking one week MC to rest and cure the cutted wound, since it so deep, but dunno 1 week is it ok but there is still hv college work to do.....
    Some more there is some nagging person there, even Im not really wanna get back to these mental abusement......
    Few more week to go....and it would be nice if Animasia accept my intern application......><

    I din wonder mum talked to the nagging bag and he look so behsong.....><
    Well I cant say anything since now I not allowed to care bout it until next week I recovered....I just quite worry after 1 week the wound still there....
    And.....U really ANNOYING fisher.....OwO

    So blur.....mayb cause of the operation.....
    Actually last sunday I watched GI Joe with Coffee-Ping and Eggy......
    But it was so pain when I hven get rid of tat big thing......That y I choose to go 1u, better than going Time Square, like today whole M'sia is in Red Alert

    for H1N1 turned into H3N2....LOLZ~

    And hang out at bibi there....
    But seems I more like a DECORATION.....
    Well just fine, I was so pain and fever tat time, FINE also......
    U just care bout anyone but not me, u wun leave me but always ignore me.......
    I dun think there is any different.....

    Rather listen to those person, hang out wit those person, fetch girl go home........

    OMFG I just hate those person.....
    Well still is good thing that I dunno anything......

    SO Y'ALL CAN KEEP CHEAT AND LYING BEHIND ME.....

    Not bad too......

    Time to bed,but still in crawling mode....

    Living is so tired, but I coward to end my life, is there any better way to do except destruction?


Monday, 20 July 2009

Monday, 16 March 2009

  • Im totally...Wish I could leave here....Leave me alone....I dun wanna hurt anymore....

    I hate being betrayed.....
    I hate being fooled.....
    I hate being ignored.....
    I hate being useless.....
    I more hate being abandoned......

    If God u wan let me experience these again and again....
    Then I will choose to leave the world.....
    Or mayb leave myself alone.....Forever.....
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    Tears keep on my eyes but I nvr let it come out.......I dun wan pity by anyone again.....
    All is just fake....Jz a lie to me......Not I wanna pointed it but it was really did happened......

    No one will care bout me.....Deeply in my heart.......Wat else I left.....Since u r leaved me here.....
    No matter wat promise u make to me......It all nvr exist coz jz of ur tiredness coz of me......

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    Since he leaved me,u r the only one i left.....I not love u but i like to be with u.....
    As a bro for me.......

    I nvr forget tat....
    U hugged me and yelled so loud that im ur dearly.....
    In our first cosplay trip at singapore......

    I nvr forget that....
    When I cried coz i failed to join the competition and he was act like ignored me.....
    U lend me ur shoulder....Told me tat U will be wit me......
    U tell me tat to remember u r my baby.....
    That y I only dare to hold ur hand......
    Even jz only once......

    I dunno why when u tell me that it nvr happened.....
    I dunno whether is u forgot bout it or u wan consider it nvr happen......
    I think i might be fated tat dun hv any kind of these......

    I dunno wat is truly happy.....
    I dunno wat is being cared.....
    I dunno wat is the feel of being loved......
    I dunno wat is a life or wat a gal shud hv.......
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    Getting moody coz of my sis nonsense.....

    Get out wit Wai Kok and hv a big round of talk......Quite nonsense but it make me feel better,thanks man~

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    Get home and my heart feel so wanted make it.....
    I called baby and chit chat for awhile......
    I wish to hv game round wit him since now he is playing back monster hunter too......

    Luckily he allowed....
    Sharing bout the fun last nite and show my apologize bout jz now I getting mad.....
    Nah.....If he still dunno then doesent mind.......
    I think shud be remember one day.......
    Jz remembered i think i still keep the msg of tat moment......muehehehe....
    Jz when tat time im so moody,sorry baby......

    Mayb jz keep in the heart.....
    Mayb the situation now not suit for it.....

    Mayb....
    Mayb i really did still miss that fool......
    A stubborn lil cute fool......

    Thanks to baby u r wit me all the time,when he was not here.......

    Mayb i shud get some sleep.....yeah.....
    It doesent matter how was my college work......
    As long mum is understanding me.......She know all.......

    Waiting for next turn of clubbing....haha~

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